Happy New Year

Yet another year has passed, how many of you have actually followed through with your New Years resolution from last year? I can honestly say that I did, for the most part I was able to actually follow through with my resolution. I became a more positive person and started eating healthier.

More home cooked meals and less take out was my number one goal, and its been great not only for my health and the health of my family but my wallet has definitely thanked me too. I have also been thinking more positive and taking time to think before I react to situations. Its not really the situation for the most part that is negative but how we react to it.

So, New Years resolutions for this year……………. maybe I will just continue to fine tune my resolutions from last year. God never made any of us perfect so there is always room for improvements. I will however add that I would love to attend church more and strengthen my relation with Jesus.



A place for everything and everything in its place

Its been so busy in my life these past weeks I haven’t known if I’m coming or going. One thing I  do know is that Christmas is finally over and I can  put everything away!!

Boxes here boxes there it was overwhelming, everything finally is in it’s place. We traveled to see family over the holiday’s  it was fun, painful with my legs the way they are but fun just the same. The kids all got spoiled with tablets of their own and games and toys and clothes. For once I didn’t hear any arguing over who’s turn it is, it was so quiet i got to relax and visit for a while before i remembered the kids needed checking on.

Past Christmas anxiety was calmed as we all sat around the table laughing and sharing stories from over the years, Sitting and listening to stories of my teenage husband and the shenanigans he got into set me into a pleasant mood with no anxiety. Travelling home on boxing day with just the kids even seemed pleasant enough, Hubby stayed to go over seas with his parents for a 9 days. I was a little stressed until I hear from him after they landed.

Now that everyone is safe and where they should be its time to put everything away, It only took 6 hours to clean my main floor and put it all back to normal. The basement is on tomorrows list along with the bathrooms, I wish some days that I really was super woman like my family seems to think I am. But I am not and I think I can be ok with that.

New Years Eve is tomorrow and everyone of my kids wants to do something different and we have been invited to a few different places, now I get to decide if we go out or stay home. It’s been years sense I actually “WENT OUT” in fact it’s been 14 years, and i already know that if I went out I would just feel like an awkward preteen all over again cause I’ve lived in a bubble for far too long. Games with the kids it is!!!

Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Kwanza! and many many more!! May you have a Happy New Year !!

Something has Changed

December was always my favorite time of year, I was always the one that wanted to decorate on the first of November. The last couple years I’ve putting off a little more each year. December 2011 i think was the last year I had my decorations up early, Although that was the first year we hosted Christmas with my in-laws. Nothing went right that year, We gave up our bed to my husbands parents, I slept with my oldest son and my husband and his sister took the couches in the basement. I can remember his sister accusing me of stealing from her, which is something I would never do. My husband decided to take her side and it crushed me. I held my son that night (Christmas Eve) and cried my self to sleep. The next day I couldn’t get into a good mood, the kids were sat in front of large piles of presents and told to dig in. I wasn’t able to take pictures and i didn’t even know really what anyone got cause it was a just a big free for all, a mess and it just brought me down even lower then i was already feeling. I was never happy that Christmas was over and that I could put everything away and forget about it all.

So there it is, the something that changed. and every year sense then I absolutely dread getting the tree and the decorations out. I put it off a little more each year. Now here we sit, its December 3rd 2016 and no decorations put up, not even taken out of storage. The kids are so excited and I love seeing their faces light up when they see all the pretty lights when we are traveling. They ask me everyday if we can get the tree out. and keep saying yes we will tomorrow. Last year and the year before I got the stuff out and put the tree together and told the kids to have have it. this year will most likely be the same. As hard as I try every year to get into spirit I just never turns out, I count down the days tell i can just put it all away and get it out of my sight until the next year. Maybe tomorrow Ill get it all out……………..