Happy New Year

Yet another year has passed, how many of you have actually followed through with your New Years resolution from last year? I can honestly say that I did, for the most part I was able to actually follow through with my resolution. I became a more positive person and started eating healthier.

More home cooked meals and less take out was my number one goal, and its been great not only for my health and the health of my family but my wallet has definitely thanked me too. I have also been thinking more positive and taking time to think before I react to situations. Its not really the situation for the most part that is negative but how we react to it.

So, New Years resolutions for this year……………. maybe I will just continue to fine tune my resolutions from last year. God never made any of us perfect so there is always room for improvements. I will however add that I would love to attend church more and strengthen my relation with Jesus.



A place for everything and everything in its place

Its been so busy in my life these past weeks I haven’t known if I’m coming or going. One thing I  do know is that Christmas is finally over and I can  put everything away!!

Boxes here boxes there it was overwhelming, everything finally is in it’s place. We traveled to see family over the holiday’s  it was fun, painful with my legs the way they are but fun just the same. The kids all got spoiled with tablets of their own and games and toys and clothes. For once I didn’t hear any arguing over who’s turn it is, it was so quiet i got to relax and visit for a while before i remembered the kids needed checking on.

Past Christmas anxiety was calmed as we all sat around the table laughing and sharing stories from over the years, Sitting and listening to stories of my teenage husband and the shenanigans he got into set me into a pleasant mood with no anxiety. Travelling home on boxing day with just the kids even seemed pleasant enough, Hubby stayed to go over seas with his parents for a 9 days. I was a little stressed until I hear from him after they landed.

Now that everyone is safe and where they should be its time to put everything away, It only took 6 hours to clean my main floor and put it all back to normal. The basement is on tomorrows list along with the bathrooms, I wish some days that I really was super woman like my family seems to think I am. But I am not and I think I can be ok with that.

New Years Eve is tomorrow and everyone of my kids wants to do something different and we have been invited to a few different places, now I get to decide if we go out or stay home. It’s been years sense I actually “WENT OUT” in fact it’s been 14 years, and i already know that if I went out I would just feel like an awkward preteen all over again cause I’ve lived in a bubble for far too long. Games with the kids it is!!!

Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Kwanza! and many many more!! May you have a Happy New Year !!

Something has Changed

December was always my favorite time of year, I was always the one that wanted to decorate on the first of November. The last couple years I’ve putting off a little more each year. December 2011 i think was the last year I had my decorations up early, Although that was the first year we hosted Christmas with my in-laws. Nothing went right that year, We gave up our bed to my husbands parents, I slept with my oldest son and my husband and his sister took the couches in the basement. I can remember his sister accusing me of stealing from her, which is something I would never do. My husband decided to take her side and it crushed me. I held my son that night (Christmas Eve) and cried my self to sleep. The next day I couldn’t get into a good mood, the kids were sat in front of large piles of presents and told to dig in. I wasn’t able to take pictures and i didn’t even know really what anyone got cause it was a just a big free for all, a mess and it just brought me down even lower then i was already feeling. I was never happy that Christmas was over and that I could put everything away and forget about it all.

So there it is, the something that changed. and every year sense then I absolutely dread getting the tree and the decorations out. I put it off a little more each year. Now here we sit, its December 3rd 2016 and no decorations put up, not even taken out of storage. The kids are so excited and I love seeing their faces light up when they see all the pretty lights when we are traveling. They ask me everyday if we can get the tree out. and keep saying yes we will tomorrow. Last year and the year before I got the stuff out and put the tree together and told the kids to have have it. this year will most likely be the same. As hard as I try every year to get into spirit I just never turns out, I count down the days tell i can just put it all away and get it out of my sight until the next year. Maybe tomorrow Ill get it all out……………..

Where did the time go

I swear she was only born yesterday, how can thirteen years just fly by like nothing? Last night she had her birthday “party” four friends came to sleep over, why do they call it a sleep over anyway? I think 5:30 am was when the last girl closed her eyes, but they were all up talking and giggling again by 7:30 am. They had so much fun talking about boys and playing truth or dare, I remember those days. 2:00 am came and they were asking for pizza i was up anyway, my six month old was running temp of 102.8 i think i finally got it to break at 3 am ish. So pizza at 2:00 seemed liked a great idea, I brought it down to them all sliced and ready to eat and i can honestly say it didn’t stand a chance.

I remember the day she was born, so tiny only 5lbs 11oz dark hair and a cry that was more like a little piglet squeal. Now she is such a beautiful young lady, she love Paris, reading and her new iPhone. I’m so proud of the beautiful soul she is growing up to be.

I feel old today, and the thought struck me that i get to go through this four more times with the rest of the kids and the youngest is only six months. 13 is a great milestone but we have 16’s, grads, Weddings all x5 and omg the Grandparent years. Just can’t think about my babies having babies!! She isn’t even allowed to date yet so I’m safe for a few more years, slow down and take one step at a time jeez Louise. At least I get 5 more years before the next one turns 13.

good night all I’m physically and mentally exhausted between babies growing up to fast and actual baby being sick, this multitasking mama is going to bed. We have an appointment with the piercer tomorrow after noon and I have quilting that needs to be seen too be fore we leave.

Sweet Dreams


Second Chances

When you live your whole life thinking nothing can go wrong, and then you wake up one morning and your whole life changes faster then you can say supercalafragalisticexpialadotious. Your lucky to even be alive, because you find out you have a massive clot that goes from mid thigh to just above your belly button. The room and everything in starts to spin as reality tries to sink in but everything is moving is moving so fast cause your stuck at the point where the doctor looks at you with that terrible I’m so sorry look. You have one nurse sticking your arm with an IV needle, another sticking you the stomach with a dose of blood thinners and two EMR’s  asking you if you can walk to transfer onto the stretcher.image

That was the longest day of my life, and the fastest vehicle ride I’ve ever been in. My left leg was swollen to almost 1 1/3 it’s normal size. My blood clot was miss diagnosed as an infection and I was told that I was fine to go home, where u continued to get worse until I was able to speak with my own doctor and was advised to be in the emergency department first thing the following morning. I was scheduled for an angiojet the following afternoon after I was admitted to the hospital in the city, because the clot was almost two weeks old it took the doctors 7 hours the complete a 2 hour procedure. They were able to remove 60% of the clot and the rest was already scarred and solidified to the walls of my return vein, and 3 stents were placed in my abdomen to keep the vein open so that the blood could get out of my leg and back to my heart.

I was kept in the hospital for 2 weeks and then sent home to recover. I was thanking the lord for life and praying that the intense pain that I was in would not last forever. After being home for a week and half I started to feel the symptoms of the clot coming back but this time in my right leg, back to the doctors I went. And again I was rushed to the hospital with the same diagnosis another clot had formed but this time in my right thigh, just as big as the clot in the left side. I had the same procedure and because it was caught in time it only took three hours to remove and the doctors got 90% of the clot out.and again after almost 2 weeks I was sent home to recover.

So now with two very swollen legs and I was unable to walk with out a walker, I was only home for just about three weeks when I was heading back with what I thought was a third clot. Praying I was wrong and being so thankful to find out it was only post thrombotic syndrome I stayed in the hospital for a week on bed rest.

Ive been home now for 2 months recovering and while I’m still swollen I’m slowly getting back to normal or rather what will be normal from now on. I will be on blood thinners for the rest of my life. I thank the lord everyday that I’m still here and still able to be mommy to my children and wife for my loving husband. I thank God every single day for my mom because we would be homeless without her help with kids so my husband could go to work.

So here is to second chances and to becoming a better Christian, Wife, Mother, Daughter and Person in general.❤️💙💜💚

Just be me

I’m a Wife and Mother of 5 children, I’ve never done anything great that would make me stand out and even if i had I would hide from the attention. I love to try new things ie; cooking, baking, macrame, cake decorating and D.I.Y. Ive jumped head first into quilting and it’s fast becoming my favorite escape.
I love starting projects and seeing the outcomes unfold in front of me. I’m not here to get the most views or see how popular I can be. But I thought if I left my footprint somewhere then maybe someday someone will say “hey I know her!”. Either way I’ll give it everything I’ve got like everything I do, see what  I can make of it. That is if I can find the save button……